Thursday, April 05, 2007
running and running
it's thursday.
and there's no school tomorrow!
thank goodness.
today's napfa was CRAP.
i was a nervous wreck in the morning.
then i was a nervous wreck when it started.
then i was still like that after passing two stations: sit-and-reach and inclined.
then the darnit shuttle run came.
man, it sucked.
the first time i tried, the score was terrible: 13.30
good gosh, i failed.
how can i not when the floor was terrbly slippery and my shoe was of no help at all.
if you had seen the way i skidded through the floors of jec and vivocity, you'll most probably have a better idea how friction-less my shoes are.
so then i tried again the second time.
this time, with shuyi's "WONDER-SHOES".
i still slidded. then when i returned to put the block down,
i skidded, slide and pulled a muscle.
darn, it hurts.
not only at the part i pulled,
but in the heart as well.
i just broke down and fell.
i guess it was shocking then cause i can't really remember anything except that without you guys' help and encouragement, i'll most probably just walk away.
thank you to everyone for the cheers,
thank you for all the hugs and jokes to make me laugh,
and thank you to shuyi for the shoes.
so i tried the third and final time, and though i lost grip and dropped the block,
i manage to pass.
so i guess it's another thank you to the tester,
cause i bet if it were any of the teachers,
they'll just fail me.
so anyway, i realized that i really have got to keep my emotions in check.
i can't keep breaking down like this.
but the pressure of getting something will always be there.
and the disappointment that is packaged along always hurts.
i don't know when and i don't knoe how,
but i have got to get a grip soon.
cause i am seriously running out of time.
and out of luck.
and i thank God for every second that i still am sane.
peace.
then spidey crashed into my room so i had to stop and see if he's ok at 4/05/2007 09:28:00 PM