Tuesday, September 18, 2007
disappointed + tiredness = hell
i guess i was disappointed.
and i did study this time.
perhaps it's cause i had started really late.
i can't wait for all these crap to end.
and the thing is:
at home, my 'rents aren't really supportive.
at school, i feel really tired.
scrap that i feel tired even at home.
i am really really tired.
and i'm not saying it just to complain.
fine, i seem like i'm complaining.
but i really can't let go of this negative feeling.
i thought i was able to handle what was going to come:
not very good results.
but i couldn't.
and i honestly don't feel well today.
maybe except during chinese.
hell,
joe and shuyi were really funny.
but wait,
i return home and my mom won't leave me alone.
she just had to tell me once and again that i have to work harder,
so that i can get to my dream.
HECK.
i don't even know what my dream is anymore.
goodbye cornell.
i SO WANT TO GET OUT OF SINGAPORE.
peace.
then spidey crashed into my room so i had to stop and see if he's ok at 9/18/2007 03:20:00 PM
Thursday, September 06, 2007
doomed.
thursday, 6th day into the week i supposedly should be using to do intensive studying.
just smsed val and i realize i am showing signs of craziness.
nope, it's not from the studying.
more of LACK of studying.
but by gosh.
the book was really interesting.
it was beckoning me to finsih it.
so i did.
reporting,
my only achievement thus far:
finish a book.
if only there was a test on it.
i would ace.
cause that would be the most interesting textbook i've ever had.
then i told val i realize this:
if there were no tests, prelims, or o levels,
i would TOTALLY ENJOY studying.
yep, i've said it.
it's crazy,
but i think it's true.
for me, at least.
i mean the things that we learn,
they ARE applicable,
not the crap i used to think they all are.
good gosh.
i'm nuts.
peace.
then spidey crashed into my room so i had to stop and see if he's ok at 9/06/2007 07:00:00 PM