Saturday, March 22, 2008
dark blue.
i feel quite alone sometimes.
actually, it's been quite frequent recently.
the fact that i'm actually around people but still feel lonely is quite a worrying thing.
sigh, i really don't know what to think anymore.
i used to have everything laid out in front of me.
but now,
things are just question marks.
if not,
just plain blanks.
i've got no idea what's going to happen next.
and that is such a scary idea.
it's like walking in the dark,
the kind you can't even see your hands.
and you never know when you'll trip or just crash into something.
i'm unhappy.
i'm upset.
i've been trying to cheer up,
really i've been trying really really hard.
it's tiring to try to be happy when there's just this grim feeling that just can't be gotten rid of.
it's like a parasite,
slowly sucking up all the energy i have.
not that anyone will care.
Jack Mannequin's
Dark Blue has this line:
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room?boy, yes, i have.
yes, i have.
on a lighter note,
i've finally gotten a new bottle.
peace.
then spidey crashed into my room so i had to stop and see if he's ok at 3/22/2008 10:41:00 AM