Friday, May 01, 2009
May 1st.
2 more days before i crossover to not being able to get away with everything.
i can't believe i wasted my time like that.
so many things i failed to do,
due to my cowardice of course.
this is a miserable year.
and a miserable birthday it shall be.
why must it be this year's though?
when it is supposed to be special.
there's nothing to feel special about.
when there's no excitement and anticipation.
when you realize you can't feel anymore,
yet you're actually decaying away inside.
and it actually sucks the life and fire in you.
and you don't even realize it.
so you keep moving on.
hoping to forget.
hoping it will go away.
but it does not.
and keeps accumulating.
until you feel nothing at all.
peace.
then spidey crashed into my room so i had to stop and see if he's ok at 5/01/2009 11:01:00 PM